Goodbye Jill

Sorry you threw this away.

Love Conquers All?

Yes, I felt you

Yes, Jill, I felt you. I get the point. You are the lover of my soul. I was able to keep you out of my heart for a whole day. Today, I couldn't hold up the wall any longer. Ok, so I love you heart and soul. What good does that do me if you won't even see me, or even communicate with me for goodness sake? It drives me mad sometimes.

Tsk, tsk, Jill

Are you having Bill transmit your story to me now? Pity you still haven't grown enough backbone to stand up and say it yourself. You had all of me. That wasn't good enough for you. Now you don't deserve me.

Goodness, Jill

At a time in my life when I should be the happiest, I can't quit thinking of you. Feeling you all the time like this makes it difficult to keep my mind where it should be. Wondering how you are and where you may be weighs on me heavily. Even though hating you would be much easier, I can't. My love for you runs too deep. It's like scalding lava running through my veins. Why do you have to be so unforgettable?

For Jill

It seems there's been another tragedy. The two yound ladies who had made me so happy on New Years were in a bad accident:

From Jessie's Uncle:

i have been in contact with Jessie's landlord and they have told me Jessie and Stacy was in a very serious car accident with a drunk driver , they were at a stoplight and the other driver came through the light and hit them hit on, Jessie is in ICU and Stacy did not survive. im extremely sorry to have to bring this news to you
E holmes road January 10th 2009.
she has a lot of internal injuries as well as others
she was on her way to go get a gf of theirs that had been arguin with her bf , trinitie sent Jess a msg telling her that her and her bf was into it and would she come and get her so trinitie could stay with them awhile at least the night

yes they told me she has injuries to her legs ,pelvic area, her arms , something bout her eyes or eye, and during the impact they say something was lodged into her head on the left side , i dont know what it could be exactly it worries me
if it has jus been told and not true , then it makes me suspect trinities bf cause she called Jess to come and get her so she could stay with Jess and Stac awhile , said trinitie and her bf had been arguing
something is wrong cause they havent contacted us and Jess dont go a day without leavin some message to let me know shes ok , if she can help it

We tried to contact the hospital, but we can't find out if Jessie was there and passed away until business hours today. It's 3am now and we can't find out until 8am.

Hello Jill

I'm not sure what's wrong with you, but I feel you very strongly. I wish you would communicate with me and at least let me know how you're doing. I never thought you a cruel person, but cutting off all contact and not even sending word by someone about how you are doing, especially at the time of year it was and knowing what occurred in my life around those dates, was the most cruel thing that anyone has ever done to me in my life. You know how strongly both your feelings and your pain affect me. Do you really feel this type of behavior is fair?

I hope your second surgery went well and I hope you get over it and are able to continue your life in a somewhat normal manner. I know the difficulties you are facing, having lived through them up close and personal, and I do care about you and how you are doing. I would like to say that I don't love you anymore, but that would be a lie. I am always going to love you, no matter what occurs in your life or mine. You will always be a part of me and I will always be a part of you, whether or not we ever see each other or even speak to one another again. No amount of lying to ourselves will change that. Even with the happiness that two young, sweet ladies have brought into my life, you are ever-present. You don't have to worry about me ever forgetting you. Please have faith and get better.

Love,

Cal