Hello Jill

I'm not sure what's wrong with you, but I feel you very strongly. I wish you would communicate with me and at least let me know how you're doing. I never thought you a cruel person, but cutting off all contact and not even sending word by someone about how you are doing, especially at the time of year it was and knowing what occurred in my life around those dates, was the most cruel thing that anyone has ever done to me in my life. You know how strongly both your feelings and your pain affect me. Do you really feel this type of behavior is fair?

I hope your second surgery went well and I hope you get over it and are able to continue your life in a somewhat normal manner. I know the difficulties you are facing, having lived through them up close and personal, and I do care about you and how you are doing. I would like to say that I don't love you anymore, but that would be a lie. I am always going to love you, no matter what occurs in your life or mine. You will always be a part of me and I will always be a part of you, whether or not we ever see each other or even speak to one another again. No amount of lying to ourselves will change that. Even with the happiness that two young, sweet ladies have brought into my life, you are ever-present. You don't have to worry about me ever forgetting you. Please have faith and get better.

Love,

Cal